This morning was my first on Nutrisystem. I had the blueberry scone and it was great (really). I was a little worried about an institutional food taste and there was none of that so I was very happy.
I've decided to share my actual weight with the world. I'm normally about 170. Here's how I got there:
When I graduated from highschool I was 103 and mostly boobs - I had a terrific figure and wore a size 1. I ate whateever I wanted - like ice cream for breakfast and pizza for dinner. I was pretty active with cheerleading and doing the Jane Fonda workout and running around with boys so I could eat whatever I wanted to and still look like a complete babe. Those were the days. Ahhh memories.
My sophmore year at Eckerd College I spent on Gower Street in London, totally immersed in the culture - and the food and the pints of lager. I came back weighing 123. When I got back my mom commented that I looked thick. Back at Eckerd in Florida I dropped some of the weight so I probably went back to 115 or something like that. But I was probably 125 when I graduated from Eckerd.
Then along comes Law School. I think I gained 30 pounds in the first year. So I was up to 155. Seriously. This was a stressful time and I was scared out of my wits and sitting and studying all the time. Not many parties but I discovered nachos and cheese and macaroni and cheese. I was living by myself and cooking for myself for the first time and macaroni and cheese was about all I could afford and all I knew how to make. I think during law school I even got up to 165 but when I graduated I was about 140.
As a young lawyer I fluctuated between 140 and 150. Then I met Charlie and probably packed on a few pounds during dating because I think I got back up to 165. For Christmas 1997 one of his relatives gave him the Atkins Diet book, so starting New Years we did atkins and I lost 35 pounds in the first three months, it was totally cool. When we got married in 1999 I think I weighed about 130.
Then we went to Atlantis for our honeymoon and the food was great and I think we each came back weighing 5-10 pounds more and for whatever reason we never got back on Atkins so I went back up to about 140-145.
Then I had Mac and gained a lot of weight. I think I must have been about 140 when I got pregnant because I know I gained 60 pounds with him but I also know that 202 was my highest weight when I was pregnant. The day I had him I lost 30 pounds (I was retaining a lot of water) and in the next 3-4 months I lost the other 30 so after Mac I totally went back to my pre-pregnancy weight, maybe even a little lower, I was looking really good.
Then along comes Allison. I again gained 60 pounds with her but didn't lose a bit when I had her. Ok maybe I lost like 10 pounds the day I had her but she weighed 8.8 pounds. I did lose about 20 more in the next few months. So since I had had Allison I've fluctuated between 170 and 175. I did 8 months with a personal trainer and didn't lose one pound - she said I gained muscle and lost fat. Big whoop. I wanted to see that scale move and it never did. Then my friend told me he lost 30 pounds running a marathon. So I joined a running club and started training for the Disney half marathon.
A few months in I was at the gym and trying to improve my 5k run so I got on the treadmill and ran as fast as I could for 3.1 miles (or whatever it was). I think I did 8-9 minute miles that day. But that was a bad bad day because when I got off the treadmill my right knee hurt. I went home and didn't think a lot about it but every time I ran after that - which was for several months and through several 5k races, my knee hurt a lot afterwards. People told me I wasn't stretching and that I had the wrong shoes, so I started stretching and bought new running shoes, but my knee still hurt. Finally I got an MRI of my knee because I thought I had a tear, I didn't - instead I had a fractured femur! Seems that my calcium after 2 babies and two rounds of nursing was totally depleted (and I'm not the greatest at remembering to take vitamins) and I had broken my own knee running on the treadmill. I asked the orthopedic doctor when I could start running again and he said "You should never run again." Big Time Bummer.
So I let my leg heal, it took a long time. And I started exercising again but I have to restrain myself from doing too much or else my leg starts to hurt again. And I hadn't lost the weight.
I did have a really uncomfortable pouch from having 2 c-sections and my boobs were gigantic. So after a lot of thinking, I decided to get a tummy tuck and a boob lift and reduction. It was a 9 hour surgery and 6 weeks of recovery (I did LOM for the first time during the recovery). And my pouch went away and my boobs looked like they did when I was 13 - beautiful. But that surgery was not a weight loss surgery. So while I stopped fluctuating up to 175 pounds, I stayed right at 170. Which is where I've been ever since.
Until I decided to order nutrisystem and I started eating just a little bit less and I've lost a couple of pounds. I'm pretty proud of this because for four years I haven't been able to lose anything. So I think that my mind has changed. That I was Inspired perhaps, thank you Donna Downey.
I'm ready now to claim back my babalicious body because I know its in there. It is. By the way, in my head, even with all of these ups and downs, my mental image of myself is pretty great - I think I'm a babe - so when I see pictures of myself I'm always in a state of disbelief - like - there is no way I'm that fat - whoever took the picture must have been taking it at a bad angle or something like that - but I'm ready to face the fact that its probably not the photographer. I'm ready. I'm mentally there. I'm going to succeed this time. I know it. Just watch me!
Wednesday Weigh In: 166.7
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